So I’ve gone on a date!
I meet this guy online, on a website that is mainly used for hooking up. Actually, when the site first came out that IS all it was used for. Now they have a “networking” option…you can put on your profile that you are looking to “network” which I think is total bullshit because who…and mean…what the fuck!
I saw him and even looked at his profile but thought I wouldn’t have a snowballs chance in hell with him so I didn’t send him a message. And day later, I think, I got a funny little message from him that was a joke on what I had written in my profile. I thought, good!
Damn there’s a crying fucking baby in the cafe right now that really needs to be taken out!
Back to my story….
So we talked online for a few hours over a few days and then we even talked on the phone for 4 hours one night.
The next day we meet at a cafe for coffee and stayed there talking for like 3 hours. Then he said he was going home because he was tired but I found out later he went to his friends house. I though…?… but I didn’t say anything. Then I didn’t really think about it anymore.
We talked for about an hour that night, I think, then yesterday we meet for drinks. We hung out for about 5 hours. We haven’t had sex yet, which I’m fine with, but that might be the problem.
I really don’t know what he’s thinking but I think I could really like him. He seems okay. There are a couple issues I don’t like but I think the problem we might have is that he’s a bottom, too! So am I!
I never, in a million fucking years, would have guessed that he was a bottom. I thought he was a top. I mean, I know this is stereotyping, but let’s look at a few facts, shall we!
1. He used to be MARRIED! And NOT to a man…to a WOMAN!
They got married because, according to his story, after only having sex three times they got pregnant. That sucks. So they were married for a little while – I don’t know how long – but divorced after they lost the child about…3 weeks after it was born, I think he said.
I asked him what his life would have been like now had the baby not died. He said nothing would be different except half his check would be going to her to help support the baby. I was wondering if he would still be married because he sounded like the sex wasn’t a huge problem but they also didn’t have much of it. I don’t know. I wouldn’t mind pressing a little more into that subject because I do find it a bit interesting.
I mean, I can’t relate to that…and I told him as much. But I can’t relate to that becuase while he might be somewhere in the middle of the Kinsey scale, I’m a firm fucking 6! I’m gay. I mean GAY gay! And I like that.
And, on a quick side-note he wanted to see how I would act if I got drunk and last night he succeeded in finding out. I asked him what he thought but I never got a good answer. I was wondering if I should text him today or leave him alone but just now, as I’m writing this, I think I will text him to see if I can get a better answer out of him. And I’m curious if he wants to talk today.
I mean, this is a problem I have with dating: I don’t know what the fuck to do!?! My new friend from the cafe is out of town this week so I can’t even ask her. I certainly can’t ask my Old Friend…that’s her name, by the way, Old Friend. I’ll be writing about her later but haven’t gotten around to it yet. Maybe later tonight.
P.S.: I texted him and he texted back and said “Haha. He was okay. It was fun.” I retexted him and said “”Okay.” Bite Me.”
What?!? I’m just “okay!?!?” Fuck you. Anyway.
I really don’t know where this is going. I wouldn’t mind being friends with him at the least, but then again I don’t know if I have the energy to do that right now. I mean, I do really need someone to date. I need a relationship. I think I might be entering desperate territory and that’s not a good thing. I really know that’s not a good thing! I don’t want to be that person and I don’t want to settle for someone but then I was thinking, “I’m not really the person whom anyone good would want to date.” That is something I need to think about and write about later.
I need to go now. I need to go back to work. I just wanted to make a quick post and tell you what I was doing right now. What happen. I’ll talk more about the trip I was going to take, later.
P.P.S.: He texted back saying “Boo. You read in to that negatively. :-p”
We will just have to ride the ride and see where this goes.